ruby's blog

Well, it's the start of a new month, so that's some type of excitement. I've spent yesterday under a lot of self examination after recent events and I still don't know what I should do in order to self improve, it seems obvious right? Like it shouldn't be this hard to figure out what's needed. It's really not though, that's the thing. I know what to do, but I don't really wanna do it because I don't wanna change although change is absolutely needed. I don't know why I don't want change though, I know it's going to help me but I just don't wanna change. It's strange, my mind is all over the place right now though, sorry, not much has happened over the last few days and I need to type something here in order to feel at least some type of accomplishment here, which is surprisingly easy, it takes one thing and I'm rambling about some topic, which is good for me and my mental health. Having the ability to talk about whatever y...

It's been a few days but I'm not gonna lie there hasn't been much going on in the last few days to really write daily over, that's usually how weekends are. Uneventful. I'm outside right now as of riding this and it's genuinely cold as ever, for April that is. I don't have an exact temperature but man believe me my hands are incredibly cold as of typing this. I'm not really used to typing this much, especially when my hands are cold too, I feel stiff. Give me like 15 minutes I'll be back. It took me 2 minutes to come back, sorry, it's a little hard to get back into the mood of writing long form material, such as a blog post so I feel new to this again even though it's only been 2 days, I have Friday off so I don't know how that's gonna be like, hopefully I feel like writing then as I have every single morning. I've been thinking about this blog a lot during the weekend, unsurprisingly. All in a good way mind you, I'm very happ...