Stars

The stars are going out in the sky, but to what avail? It's possible there's a significant meaning behind all of this, like how the stars go out with conjunction with your life if something happens to escape, like a relative or a large bill that's almost life ruining. The stars are a sudden reminder that there's bits of you that you haven't processed in your mind for ages, remember that thing you used to do but soon over time you fell out of it? Well, you do now, thanks to the stars. The belief of everything happening for a reason is starting to be a sham as you gaze your eyes on the flickering stars, if everything were to happen for a reason, why are you staring at the stars for some type of guidance for life? It's not adding up, of course. The sky is just a subtle reminder of life and the stars are just the memories that you were once holding on to, going out slowly, flickering as you forget the details of that one time you sledding down a snowy hill in a part designed around military art establishments which were ways for them to show off what they used their useless funding on, and you remember using a plastic trash can top because the sled they had was too big for you, but in reality it was the lid to a plastic container, and you remember your dad and mother being there but it was actually your mother and uncle. The conception of misremembering is a tough one to comprehend and understand, but it helps in the long run, you'll never be the person you once were, and more importantly, the person you want to be. It's okay that you're not that, because it gives you a reason to keep going, you keep telling yourself that you'll get there. Staring at the stars like it's a mirror, telling yourself everything that you've done wrong, and what you'll never be, or just staring with a complete understanding on why you hate yourself and wonder why it's even okay to keep going. We get through life by staring, the prices of food, the road while driving, and even walking down the street and you observe a man crying in his car and it turning out to be Sean Penn as he's holding a script to one of his movies. It's a natural instinct, such as the others, the brain and eyes are so interconnected, you can't do without both. That's why when you stare at the stars the only thing you can think of is the bad things and good times, the darkness clouding around you and the loud cricket that never stops ever, and lights. It's all ties back to the lights. Stare into the light as they said, but why can you when you can use that light in the dark. By yourself. It's really wonderful where your mind can take you. 

Ruby Onoculum

May 31st, 2022

Hello, it's me Ruby here. I hope you guys enjoy these type of posts because I'm probably gonna be making them a lot more this summer, nothing happens much during these times so I might as well post my writings in the meantime. Blog posts will absolutely be regular, they're never going away, but I figured I'd vary the content quite a bit, as I made this blog to share the type of writing I do. I hope to share more in the future and share more with you guys. I love you all so much. Wouldn't be here without any of you, god bless.