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The stars are going out in the sky, but to what avail? It's possible there's a significant meaning behind all of this, like how the stars go out with conjunction with your life if something happens to escape, like a relative or a large bill that's almost life ruining. The stars are a sudden reminder that there's bits of you that you haven't processed in your mind for ages, remember that thing you used to do but soon over time you fell out of it? Well, you do now, thanks to the stars. The belief of everything happening for a reason is starting to be a sham as you gaze your eyes on the flickering stars, if everything were to happen for a reason, why are you staring at the stars for some type of guidance for life? It's not adding up, of course. The sky is just a subtle reminder of life and the stars are just the memories that you were once holding on to, going out slowly, flickering as you forget the details of that one time you sledding down a snowy hill in a part...

Hello, it's been a few days and for that I wanna say sorry, but it's been a worthwhile few days. For starters, the JPEGMAFIA concert. That was genuinely the most fun I've had at any event and I'm so happy it was for my favorite rapper, and the fact it was on my final day of school as well, it genuinely felt everything at that point was coming together, just for the record, 80% of the post will be about this show. I ended up at the venue at 4:43 PM and we waited in line until the doors open, then we had to go to the back of the line because I forgot my ID, which was disappointing but I still got a good spot nonetheless which I'm thankful for. I noticed throughout the line a lot of people had graphic tees on, most notably the Veteran tee, which I never saw until now in person so that was cool, and I also saw some extra stuff like an American Psycho shirt and a Tommy Wright the 3rd one too. I was in line for nearly 2 hours but it was worth it 100%. For being my first ...

It's a Thursday right now and I clearly don't know what to do really, since today is a half day there's not much going on outside of exams and nothing has happened really in the last few days to warrant a long detailed post like I usually do. Yesterday was pretty eventful so I'll talk about that and some side stuff. Since yesterday was my first and second class exam, I decided to leave early because after 2nd I didn't have anything else after that and the school allowed us to leave, because I heard through a teacher that they weren't checking for attendance after the period was over. I only had to do one exam though because the day before I got my 2nd period exam out of the way because that class is 90% seniors and it was field day for them so there was literally just me and another senior who didn't leave so the teacher let us take our exams pretty early. It was fairly easy too because it was the exam he'd given us last semester. So the only exam I was ...

Well it's the final week of school, and my math teacher is STILL assigning geometry work. This post is gonna be fairly short because not much has happened outside of a few main things so I'm gonna delve into that. I feel really, really good. Yeah, that's no surprise but earlier today I was having this killer headache, like it was genuinely unbearable so as soon as I got home I immediately rested, and now I feel much better. For some reason, in 4th period, there was a smell that was very waxy I think and it just made everything, much worse, like it became so bad it felt like a machete pierced right into my brain, it sucked so much and for the rest of the day it was pretty bad still. The bus ride home was very fun though but that's because I did something I haven't done in a long time, which was refreshing to do. I sat down and listened to a playlist that wasn't LOONA, or JPEGMAFIA or Haunted Mound related. I listened to other music and varied it out a bit and it ...

It's 5 in the morning right now and I feel like writing a blog post so there's that. I recently started watching a bunch of Japanese movies as stated in the last post and it's been mixed so far. I had to turn off Black Rat , which is the one I planned on doing, but the score was low so I finished Pride & Prejudice instead, which was really good, I enjoyed it very much. I've watched The Happiness of The Katakuris since my last post but WOW it's absolutely amazing, everything about it is just incredible to watch and it's just, great. The acting, the music, just, everything is amazing. Takashi Miike is a great director too, his stuff with Audition was pretty great but this one was out of the park for sure, everything about it was so well done perfectly, been down to the stop motion made for the clay scenes, it was all so good. I plan on watching Tokyo Gore Police tonight, if that goes through hopefully, I've been taking naps after school and waking up w...

There wasn't really a blog post yesterday mostly because there really was nothing to talk about, I still don't feel like there is but unfortunately if I put it off more depending on how much content I have to write I'll start feeling bad, mostly for the lack of writing I'm doing. With all that being said, let's start writing shall we! School ends next week, thank god for that. It's been a stressful last few weeks and I need all the time off as possible, even a week would work but 2 months is absolutely an option I would choose too so I'm not complaining either way. It's not that school was much of a problem before but the new bus ride makes me get home way later than I did before and that's stressing me out because it doesn't feel like I have time for anything really in that day, but alas! A new plan. You guys know how I haven't watched movies recently? Well I'm going to change that. I've noticed that the platform Tubi, which is just ...

Oh wow, it's been forever hasn't it, I am so sorry. Ever since the last post I've loosened up though and I feel much better. There's been a lot of new stuff since my last update life post so let me run through it! School wise, it was nothing much, boring as usual but in 4th period one day we had a substitute teacher that wasn't too bad, that's about as far as that went. Other than that nothing much, school wise at least. I haven't watched a movie in a few days which is driving me a little crazy so I'm gonna watch one tonight hopefully, more preferably Ringu from '97? I think? It looks cool and it has a Arrow release so might as well, they tend to have incredible Japanese movie releases, although as of late their quality control has been horrible since they were bought out a few months ago, even the customers are making jokes about how frequent the quality control has been, more specifically about their 4Ks, you know, I haven't bought a Blu-ray i...

If you weren't aware, which you probably weren't, Sematary, head of the Haunted Mound collective and world renowned Chief Keef clone has recently came out with a new song! It's called Bleed A River and it's surprisingly, a love song. It's definitely interesting to see what a Sematary love song would be, with the first glance of that with the 2020 release of Rainbow Bridge 2 with the track Duster Huffer , in which Sematary raps about doing dust with this undisclosed girl wearing True Religion and doing somewhat questionable things to her and her body. I'm gonna be up and front about this, this is probably one of the more decent songs Sematary has released. It's not bad by any means, don't get me wrong, but it's really not that great as I was expected. It's possible my cynicism is making me not like certain aspects of this song but I don't think that's the case as I'm listening to this on repeat as I'm writing this, but actually, it...

Ai Aso might genuinely be one of the best musicians probably EVER. I can't stress that enough, and no I'm not joking either. She's an incredible musician, her melodies, the way she plays guitar, her voices, her whispering. Oh my god. It's all genuinely amazing. I feel like I've found Christ in these songs and I'm not letting go in any capable. I know this post is out of nowhere but I have to state this now and only now. Ai Aso is genuinely phenomenal, Lone (2014) might be one of the best live albums, it's so good, genuinely sounds like studio quality. It really takes me out of my stress. The soft melodies invoke a mood in me that's peaceful, I don't know what about it though that makes me feel this way. I'm not complaining either way, I'm happy I feel this way about it. Her voice is so soothing over her guitar playing, it's cute in a way, but it moves you emotionally. I was listening to her earlier on the way home from my bus ride and I ...

Ugh, this is going to be a mostly negative post so might as well get the positives out of the way. Word searches! I don't know how much I've talked about them but I'm really good at them, which is good because I like playing them. I didn't discover this until last year when I got bored and started looking up word searches out of nowhere and began playing them a lot. I was so good at them, would always beat one in 2 minutes or less, which is cool. I bring this up out of nowhere because I was playing a word search last night and it dawned on me, "Have I never talked about word searches on the blog?", and it felt like I haven't, so I'm talking about it now. Great story, I know. What else, Godzilla! Yeah, sorry to mention him yet again but it's a staple, he's gotta make his way into every post so it's better if it's just right there and done, but what about Godzilla? Do you guys realize how many Godzilla films are technically called Godzill...

Man, where do I even begin. Not much has happened this weekend except non-stop media consumption, which to me is far more interesting than anything that physically can happen at least, nowadays. Let's see, Saturday, what happened Saturday... Oh right, I watched Audition (1999)! It's a great little film from Japan about this dude who wants to get a wife because his wife died 7 years prior and his son tells him he should get married, so he tries to. There's not really much I can say that wouldn't be a spoiler but it's definitely an unexpected movie, but a great one at that, definitely comes recommended, I enjoyed every single second of it. I also watched both of JPEGMAFIA's visual albums, which are The Ghost Pop Tape and Darkskin Manson , they're both more laid back than I remember there being, if you know you know. I'm particularly enthralled by both because they're genuinely great pieces of work and I wanna experiment like that with my work in the f...

You know, with every break that occurs I'm starting to believe that I lost some great passion for blogging and typing nonsense over the things I'm into, when in fact, that's not the case. I just don't have anything really interesting to talk about in a long form sense, apart from yesterday, when I went to the dentist, so let's talk about that! Alright so, I have a placer (I think that's what they're called) on the back of my bottom teeth as I had braces in 7th grade and they never took them out after, so I'm pretty used to them being in my mouth and whatnot. Recently one of the pieces that was holding that thing together fell off, so it was an expose metal bar in my mouth that was sharp (it often knicked my tongue every one in a while, which hurt) that needed to be replaced quickly, which was the case and what happened. I had to miss a whole day of school (oh no, not my very important education), in which I started watching a Godzilla film, but then turn...

Well, it's the start of a new month, so that's some type of excitement. I've spent yesterday under a lot of self examination after recent events and I still don't know what I should do in order to self improve, it seems obvious right? Like it shouldn't be this hard to figure out what's needed. It's really not though, that's the thing. I know what to do, but I don't really wanna do it because I don't wanna change although change is absolutely needed. I don't know why I don't want change though, I know it's going to help me but I just don't wanna change. It's strange, my mind is all over the place right now though, sorry, not much has happened over the last few days and I need to type something here in order to feel at least some type of accomplishment here, which is surprisingly easy, it takes one thing and I'm rambling about some topic, which is good for me and my mental health. Having the ability to talk about whatever y...